new beginnings

 *taps mic*

testing... testing... one, two, three...

well, let's try again, shall we? 

I hate that I didn't document the exhilarating roller coaster ride that was in January and February, but at this point in time all I can do is move forward. 

Today was not perfect. I didn't get everything done on my to-do list. The laundry wasn't done. The dishes are piled high. But the worst of my failures was that my poor son missed his cast party! I hate that he missed it and I can't go back in time. I honestly don't know how or why I skipped it, but I am very, VERY sad about it.

but some things went well today.... like...

I ran with Evelynn this morning.

I resolved a huge fight with three of my kids, and got to hear an incredible apology that filled my heart with hope.

I got my school assignment in on time... barely. 

James got his homeschool prize today.

I got word on Ebenezer's autism testing.

I woke up from a nap barely in time to pick up Richard from school. 

I found Roger's missing shoe.

The tooth fairy finally visited a little boy who lost his tooth on a campout.

Sure, I made some judgment calls today that weren't always the best... but I am still here to tell the tale.

I didn't get any pictures today. 

Like when James got a fat lip after falling while rollerblading.

Or when Evelynn hopped off to spend the entire day with her friends, wearing her hair with bear ears. 

I had so many battles inside myself today. and I asked myself a lot of questions. I tried to choose what was good. and I was successful in some ways, like being mindful of the fuel I put in my body and being mindful of technology and my time. But I don't have all the answers, and I haven't won the war.

It's a struggle, but there are good things.

So I guess for now I am letting those two co-exist. the hard and the happy.

I am learning, and growing... and that is what I really want.

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and now for some old photos to remind me of snippets that I missed sharing last month: