sweet and sour

I got zero sleep last night. My babies were up all night, and I couldn't catch a break. 

regardless, Evelynn and I went on a two-mile run this morning. It felt so good. I love running. It felt good to do something that I just wanted to do and for no other reason. The air was crisp and I loved every minute of the cool air on my face. We stretched before and after. I ran without music and cleared my head. It was crazy to think of how I have grown up here my entire life and now I am running in my neighborhood with my daughter. It blows my mind to pass by Jeff's old apartments where we hugged for the first time. Seriously. it just blows my mind to think about all that has happened in this place.

I pushed through the day but ended up attempting a nap around lunch. It didn't last long and I had weird dreams that filled me with anxiety. Then it was time to help my girls do their lemonade stand. I set them up and then ran a few errands. I spent most of my day listening to podcasts and reading church articles. It felt good to reflect on God's word and my testimony of Christ. I feel a difference when I fill my mind with good things.

 As the day went on, I felt myself getting depressed. I wasn't sure why I felt so down. but I did. I dragged myself through the routine and then forced myself out of the house while my mom did Grammy night with the kids. I stopped by Ellen's apartment first, to see her new wheelchair. being with her cheered me up and brought light into my soul. Then I went grocery shopping and came home to put everything away. I also did some dishes and laundry so tomorrow will hopefully be a bit easier.

Jeff and I touched base one last time for a spiritual discussion and prayer. It felt good to recount what stood out today as I pondered things throughout my tasks. I really liked THIS article by Elder Eyering about LIGHT in DARKNESS and THIS Sunday interview with President Freeman. and I liked bits and pieces of THIS podcast because it gave me hope and THIS podcast because it reminded me of what to focus on.

Here's to tomorrow.